Cleaning

In few weeks’ I will be moving to a new place (shifting residence), and so I decided to spend my weekend cleaning my room and getting rid of the junk. It took me few hours to tidy and sort. Things like old study notes, paper pieces and printouts, went straight into the rubbish bin without a second thought. But, certain things like - clothes, shoes, jewelry, were hard to let go (emotional attachment). But then I told myself – “ You don’t use those things anymore, in the name of memory those things have been sitting in your closet for years, do you want those things to remain in there for the next decade or do you want to give them away to someone who will actually use it”. Felt sour at the beginning, but then I knew giving them away was the right thing to do.

My room was organised and spacious. It felt nice. It reminded me that as my room, my heart needed cleaning and sorting periodically. Time to time those negative feelings - heavy baggage that you carry inside needs to be taken out, and discarded. In life, sometimes we get attached or comfortable with bitter memories and instead of letting them go, we decide to hold onto them for years. It’s not easy to forgive someone that has caused us hurt. I am a work in progress in the area of forgiveness. But, what I have realized is that holding onto a grudge, makes you negatively attached to a person that has wronged you, and you end up booking a room for them inside your heart. In reality, they don't merit that occupancy. You don’t want to give undue importance to someone who doesn't deserve it. Hence, I have made a deliberate choice to cleanse my heart and give myself self-talks occasionally.